Mid life crisis

I am not joking about the title

I seriously feel like I am going through Mid-Life crisis
My GPA is a record low, my SAT scores are down there, and My life isn’t getting better.

To tell you the truth I don’t want to tell you the truth, that would cost me the rest of my that I am barely holding on to, but I can say this. My life isn’t certainly getting any better.

And the fact that I am an atheist isn’t helping out the relationships that I made in the last 4 years that I lived here. My family just basically don’t want me to express my atheistic liberal views. So I am like Serious Black in a sense, I am slowly being scratched off of my family tree.

I really don’t know what I should do. At this point, I came to far to give up, but also I am haven’t gone far enough to continue. I guess that’s Mid-life crisis for ya.

Even in this terrible times, my mind has adopted to joke about the whole situation……
So if this is my mid life crisis…. Then I only need to live 17 more years!!

I seriously,sadly , find that somewhat awesome.

I really don’t know what to do. I need help but I don’t want one. It’s not a pride thing, it’s more like I don’t want anyone to know the truth begone all this. The last thing I need is people talking bad about me. The last thing I need is someone just completely bringing me down.

Hope you are having a better day then I am. :3